I’m 44 years and 250 miles removed from the red dirt of my
home town, Colorado City Texas. As we
drove along the back roads of Texas, as we drove through Bangs and Zephyr and
crossed Bearfoot Creek and Yellow Wolf Creek, as we moved from oak to scrub oak
to large mesquite to small mesquite I began to feel the familiarity of home, a home
long time gone.
Skip, a literal lifelong friend, and I drove into town, from
the south. We drove into a town I left
in 1972, the summer after I graduated from high school. I have returned to west Texas infrequently
for reunions, Skip a little more often. The
town is different, it has evolved, it has changed, it has aged, just as we
have.
My childhood homes, the houses I grew up in are long gone,
no buildings, no foundations, no nothing.
The earth has started the process of reclaiming the road where I learned
to play baseball and ride bikes and where I played under the street lights with
neighbors. In time, I suspect, the only
thing left to mark our lives there will be two solitary cattle guards, guarding
nothing but pasture grass and mesquite trees.
The town is different, it feels different. Just like me, like Skip, like all who
attended this reunion from all six graduating classes, the town has celebrated
success, suffered from natural aging, mourned radical change and evolved in a
world where evolution leaves nothing unscathed.
It’s interesting that this part of the world still has such a gravitational pull on my psyche. As we drove into the town it still felt like home. My old house is gone, every piece of the home I knew for years has been eradicated, but the town, the little west Texas red dirt town still feels a lot like home to me.
The memories of skies turned orange from the dust from cotton
gins in October, learning how to put on footballs pads, and marching down 2nd
Street with the junior high band while Bob Newman, the band director, walked
the sidewalks confiscating pea shooters from the local hoodlums intent on
shooting the band are still very much alive.
I never feel the
first cold winds of winter without thinking of those skies and those times
spent with my friends enjoying free life in a small town.
It really does come down to the people, the people who, in
spite of the miles and years, are the only ones who know a special part of your
life. It’s the history you have with
these people, not the number of years, not the continuous contact. They are all part of your formation, all part
of your connection to your past, to your own history, to your beginnings and
your essence. These are the people that
knew who you were before you were an adult, before you were changed by the
vagaries of life.
It all comes down to Skip and Dean and Randy and David and
Sherry and Barbara and Sharon and all of those who also hold the memories who
are also connected to this little town.
Its Fay and Debra and Sonny and Wayne and Dewain and Mark and Judy and Kathy and Carolyn who lived through the
same times, who remember what it was like when we heard about JFK being
assassinated, who watched the same dumb television shows and watched the
Beatles and listened to American Band Stand and know who Sky King is. These people hold the key to your memories
and they will forever be a part of your beginning, your growing up, your heart
break, your tragedy, your victories, your failures and your recoveries.
Sorry guys but you’re there for life whether you want to be
or not, you get to all be a part of who I am as I carry on with Marty, with my
kids and with my grandchildren. You are
a part of me as I am, like it or not, a part of you.
That’s why it makes sense to stop in every now and then and
talk. I like that.
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